actor

i'm always in my head
(to my dismay)
in the words asking why
hoping to construct,
hoping to let it live.
wishing for a blip of time
in my own life
to question
analyze
reflect like this . . .
just a second to take everything in,
out of context.

but it never comes.

we harp on being "in the moment"
but offstage that's all there is.